April 7, 2009 11:12 AM
The Editor said, in a very recent comment on someone else's blog, "Well clearly you must ensure that you sport a black and white hat in due course or I shall never know who you are ;-) And of course I am the very epitome of discretion so when I see the hat you can rely upon me (lmao)...
I am delighted to hear that you are, like me, a person enjoying a multiple personality order. The difference between you and I is perhaps that you are a little disconcerted by there being more than one of you inside your body and so endeavour a achieve congruence of personality.
Whereas I suspect congruence of personality features would be impossible for me, as it would involve the personality equivalent of doing the splits and walking on a tight rope. I couldn't sustain it even if I could get myself into position. I chose the lazy way - over a period of time and quite unconsciously, that is without conscious note or intent, I developed a variety of personas.
Range of Personas can Land you in the Bin
It certainly does throw people at times, and sometimes it's me that's thrown, into a loony bin. But, generally speaking, since all my selves are in contact with each other and I experience my 'self' as one core, then the behavioural and expressive shifts in my behaviour in different circumstances are no more or less than a variety of masks for one and the same method 'actor' ('me') in my life story as it unfolds before me as I live it and at times attempt to direct it.
Pointlessly, I've now realised, since in some very happy way, it turns out that my life directs me not the other way around. How weird is that. I don't know whether or not I've got anything at all to do with it. The mistakes of course must be mine. The helping me back to my feet afterwards, and brushing me down ready to 'fight another day' however, is what makes me have full faith in 'god or whatever's good'
Friday, 17 April 2009
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Whoops I meant to close the passage with another " to remind you that today's posting is a copy-pasting of a comment I wrote earlier tonight on someone elses blog. Bear that in mind. An odd way to publish, offering people snippets of a conversation, in effect. Still, I quite like it actually - it replicates in a very pale way what it must be like to be born - to arrive right in the middle of things with everyone around you seeming to know what they're doing while you just lie there feeling a right pillock. Obviously artistic licence has been used for the last part of the sentence - clearly a new born baby doesn't have the conceptual or social constructs to feel a right pillock. Bet s/he feels a bit disoriented and anxious though...
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